Consistency*

Most of the times things are worth trying (only if u want it bad enough)

[lesson learned]

A feeling of rejection

Not that im being proud of wt i can't/couldn't do but not everyone has to accept what im offering.
No, it doesn't damage my feelings and no, it doesn't recude my self esteem.
No vulnerability, no hard feelings...

I will keep intending to be my best self, my very best, all the time - today and everyday.

"Being underestimated is not a bad thing, cause when ppl have low expectation u're just constantly going tadaaa and they're like woow"

:))

[And if u ever feel this way, u do too]

Facts

Happy - mostly
Bored - yes
Mood - mixed
Color - all
Naked - half
Lover/hater - lover
Afraid of commitment - yes
Nervous habits - overthink
Place want to visit - Maldives
Can you twist your tongue around and roll it? - no
Can you raise one eyebrow? - yes
Can you cross your eyes? - yes
Do you make your bed daily? - everyday!!
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? - twirl
Do you cook? - yes
Do u believe in love at first sight? - yes
Do you like anyone? - yes
Do they know it? - yes
What jewellery do you wear? - earrings, not a big jewelry person
What’s your favorite beverage? - fresh juice
Ever thrown something at someone? - yes
Ever bungee jumped - no, but soo willing to!!
Ever finished an entire jaw breaker? - yes
Ever wanted an ex bf/gf back - no
Last alcoholic drink - boring, red wine
Last movie seen - American Psycho, hate it!!
Last song played - Come rain or come shine by Ray Charles
Last person see u cry? - him
Last person u went out to dinner with? - him
Last person u talked on the phone to? - him
Last person made you laugh? - haha him

[This or the other] :
Wild night out or romantic night in – wild night out
Money or happiness - happiness, but both
Night or day - night
Love or lust - both
Cats or dogs – none
Smile or eyes - smile
Hugs or kisses - hugs
Shorter or taller - taller
Intelligence or attraction - both
Romantic or spontaneous - spontaneous
Funny or serious - funny
Older or younger - older, but who cares anyway :))
Outgoing or quiet - both
Sweet or bad ass - mixed
Simple or complicated - both
Flowers or candy - candy, but flowers are cool sometimes
Gray or black - gray
Color or black and white photos - black and white
Sunrise or sunset - both
Staying up late or waking up early - early
Sun or moon - moon
Winter or summer - summer
Left or right - right
10 acquaintances or two best friends - two best friends
Sun or rain - rain from the sun
Vanilla or chocolate ice cream - chocolate ice cream for sure
Vodka or Jack Daniels - none, really!

Last night

They say "never regret something that once made you smile", but imagine realising some terrible mistake u've made and being awfully ashamed of that... Crappp isn't it?? Well i was in the exact same situation last night thinking about it over and over again... I was feeling nervious... Anyways, after hours of brainstorming in the middle of the night i finally realised how weak and volnurable i was... I mean i just couldn't possibly make a good conclusion about one crappy mistake and move on!! So when u everrr feel that way, don't overthink and incite the chaos taking over ur mind!! Just focus on one thing at a time and then everything else would take care of themselves!! Good conclusion is like a hit, and God doesn't make that randomly!! At the end of the day, it's better to regret something you did than to regret something you didn't do!! Yes, sometimes "past" is awful, but evading from that can only make it worse. Besides, it's a part of who u are today, a much bigger person!! No matter how many chapters of ur book u've already written, u can always start a new one, a very interesting one!

Random fact from today: the day's full of complitely random compliments ))

031210

Tired of playing make-believe games,
that as long as im trying, the change will come...
Tired of thinking about stuffs and worry,
Tired of believing that tomorrow's gonna be better,
Tired of trying to make things perfect or at least better than what it is...

And then there it is, the scariest question,

Then what???

Great nouns

Self acceptance
Self analysis
Self awareness
Self assessment
Self assurance
Self belief
Self confidence
Self control
Self determination
Self discovery
Self esteem
Self forgiveness
Self governance
Self help
Self judgement
Self motivation
Self respect
Self sufficiency
Self support
Self understanding
Self value

Live ur best life

Tragedy comes out of nowhere.

Only we, ourselves, decide what to expect and learn from it.

We can never escape from the life we live, from who we are;

Life doesn't stop and we've just got to keep living our best life!

It's inside that counts

Trust is a fragile thing.

Once earned, it affords us tremendous freedom;

but once trust is lost, it can be impossible to recover.

Of course the truth is,

We never know who we can trust.

In the end most ppl decide to trust only themselves;

it really is the simplest way to keep from getting burned...

Break bad habits before they become addictions

You can be the most self-aware person on the planet and still suffer from a soft addiction. Because of that fine line between "harmless habit" and "soft addiction"
Old habits die hard whatsoever, but...
Break bad habits before they become addictions.

Habits become harmful.

Someday, for better or worse, things will be changing and something, i dont' know what, is gonna be taken away.
Im afraid that you'd have nothing but regret. So much regret!!!

S.A

Sono sola... molto sola!!! A quest for self discovery, S.A; grt movie!!!

Dissapointed... dissapointed in myself... Can't believe that after all these years im still in the one place where i'd never wanted to be... I've got to make better judgements

Man with S.A.

S.A.

Self-awareness is the awareness of the self as separate from the thoughts that are occurring at any point in time. Without self awareness the self perceives and believes the thoughts that are occurring to be who the self is. Self awareness gives one the option or choice to choose thoughts being thought rather than simply thinking the thoughts that are stimulated from the accumulative events leading up to the circumstances of the moment.

[Wikipedia]

The Pursuit of Happiness дээр гардаг шиг аз хүн болгонд тохиолдохгүй!

Aав яг над шиг, үгүй ээ би яг аав шигээ хүнд "Үгүй" гэж хэлж чаддаггүй. Аав болохоор "Хэрвээ л чи хүн шиг хүн байя гэж бодож байвал чадлынхаа хэрээр хүнд тусалж бай" гэж хэлдэг. Би болохоор аавыг заримдаа өөрийгөө, өөрт байгаа бүхнээ золиослоод байгааг нь хараад, тусалсан тусыг нь хэд алхаад мартдаг хүмүүсийг (үнэндээ бол хүн биш л дээ) хараад, мэдээд, мэдрээд байгаа болохоор тэрийг яав ч зөв зүйл биш гэдгийг нь мэдээд байгаа. Xүмүүс давардаг, бас үнэлж мэддэггүй. Тэгээд би ингэж бодсон "За чи чадлынхаа хэрээр хүнд тусалдаг чинь зөвөө, дэм дэмэндээ дээс эрчиндээ, тэгээд ч би чадаж л байгаа хойно илүү дутуу хариу ч харахгүй; харин эргээд харахад нүүрээ буруулдаг, давардаг хүмүүст (хүний баг өмссөн балиар амьтанд) бол хумсныхаа үзүүрээр хийчих байлаа ч хөдлөхгүй" гэж. Гарахгүй байсан ч, гаргаад хэлнэ "Үгүй"!

Happy happy happy

На конец то!!!

Things are just heading to the right direction!

All I gotta do is allocate my time in the most efficient way ;)

13th of April

"Cөхөрч байна гэж хэлэхээсээ өмнө сөхөртлөө би юу хийлээ гэж бодож үзэх хэрэгтэй юм байна! Би юу хийлээ? Хичээсэн! Тэгвэл тэр чинь хангалтгүй! Яагаад гэвэл хичээх гэдэгт чинь хязгаар байдаггүй!"

[I have no choice but to try!]

Толгойгоор дүүрэн бодол

Хүн зорилготой байж байж, тэрэндээ хүрэх гэж тэмүүлнэ. Гэтэл надад ямар ч зорилго тэмүүлэл гэж юм байхаа больчихож. Өдөр хоног, цаг минут секунд яваад л байдаг. Өглөө босоод гэрээсээ гараад алхана, хэдэн цагийн хичээлд сууна, нэг л мэдэхэд шөнө болоод бөөн бодол болоод орондоо хөрвөөгөөд хэвтэж байх юм. Ингэж амьдармааргүй байна, миний амьдрал яг л нэгэн хэвийн, цэвэрхэн татсан зураас шиг өнгөрөөд байгаа юм шиг...

Мэдээж ш дээ, би энэ жижиг өрөөндөө өөрийнхөө жижиг ертөнцийг бүтээчихээд тэндээ бүгчихээд гарахгүй байгаа юм чинь! Тиймээс одоо тэр ертөнцөөс жоохон ч гэсэн цухуйх хэрэгтэй! Тэгэж байж л, шинэ зүйлтэй учирна; шинэ зүйлээс шинэ зорилго, шинэ санаа үүснэ! Тэгээд тэр олон зорилгод хүрэхийн тулд өдөр бүрийг үр бүтээлтэй харамсхааргүй өнгөрөөнө!

Миний тэр жижигхэн ертөнц-д "болохгүй байна", "хүсэхгүй байна" гэсэн үгнүүд дэндүү олон юм байна. Гэтэл хэн нэгэн хүн намайг унтаж байх хооронд болгох гээд намайг xүсүүлэх гээд гүйж байхгүй нь ойлгомжтой! Тиймээс би биш бол өөр хэн гэж? Бас одоо биш бол хэзээ гэж? Миний хамгийн их хэрэглэдэг үг "маргааш" гэж... Одоо гээд л босохгүй бол, хөдлөхгүй бол хэзээ ч босохгүй, хэзээ ч өөрчлөгдөхгүй!

Бас өөрөөсөө бусдын төлөө дэндүү их боддог тэр ертөнцөд! Тэр юу гэж бодож байгаа бол, бодсон бол, намайг тэгсэн гээд бодчихсон болов уу, ингэчихвэл юу гэж бодох бол гээд л... Хэн нэгнийг бодохоосоо өмнө өөрөөсөө "Би зөв юм хийж байна уу?" гээд асуучих хэрэгтэй! Хэрвээ л би зөв юм хийж байгаа бол бусдад таагүй санагдаж, бусдыг гомдооно гэж үү?

*Өөрчлөлт хийнэ гэдэг өөрийгөө өөрчилж байна гэсэн үг биш, энийг өөрийгөө тэлж байнаа ойлгочих хэрэгтэй хэрэгтэй!

Eventually

After all this "holiday" thing, eventually, Im back in Tainan. The new semester has bagan; new beginning-new opportunities! ;)

I've had the most awesome holiday, birthday and chinese/lunar new year (Цагаан сар) ever!

"It IS beautiful to have the ones like you! Y'all are precious to me!"

We're not really taught to appreciate those tiny little things that we have; but when they're gone we start to miss em, miss the "past"!

Luckily for me, I have these beautiful memories, and I AM making em now! ;)

Winter Break

Winter Vacation!

The vacation I've been waiting for so long! The first semester in college is gone! It was not that good than what I was expecting. Or my expectation is too high! Anyway, it's gone, and it's time to move on, and it's also a great opportunity to start things again!

I was planning on doing a lot of stuffs, exercising, traveling and maybe going back to MNGL ;)! But for some reason I feel guilty about sth. It's like there is so much regret! So I don't know for sure... Anyway, instead of spending time on just sleeping and eating I am gonna go out and discover sth; it's ALWAYS better when you are "doing" sth!

I have this book, that my sister brought to me, I am gonna finish reading that this holiday! I have to! I also got "My sister's keeper" by Jodi Picoult, which I bought for myself as a Xmas gift ;) Btw the movie was so great, I did a lot of cry though! Oh and at last and of course "New moon", so bad I've watched the movie before I finish reading! It's now or never lol, cause I am really not into the "Twilight" thing now!

Have a productive holiday!